I loved her first...

I have spent my whole life wondering how she could do it,  How she did it... I took most of what my life had to offer for granted as she was so wonderful we didn't have to worry about anything.  I have and always will be close to her as I am convinced my heart is a large piece of hers.  Her smile and the way she composes herself make me so proud to know her,  and even more proud to be such a large part of her.  I was the gift she never realized was so great,  I gave her something she had never had before... I was the first person to call her mom and tell her I love her,  I was the first person she held and taught to eat, walk, sleep I was lucky enough to show her how it felt to have her heart walk around outside of her.     I had the pleasure of making her a very proud Nana,  but being the first for most things wasn't always as glorious as what it seems.  She made my life bright she taught me how to treat others,  she showed me how to love.  She has stood beside me my whole life and has always accepted me for who I am and has never tried to change me.  She listens to me daily,  she provides advice when I need it or ask for it.  She makes me feel better with just hearing her voice.  I am beginning to understand more and more everyday that these things that I took for granted many years ago were the greatest gifts I would ever receive in my life.  Loving her is the greatest feeling in the world,  listening to my little lady talk so highly and so amazingly about such an inspirational woman makes me even more proud to call her My Mom.

I love you Mom more than you will ever know,  & I loved you first :) oxo

Thank you for your life long experience, for your unconditional love, and for being there for me each and every day!

Love you xox

Until next time
~Coll xo

Take control of your life

Its been a long time since I have been around,  life has taken me in so many directions over the last few months!  Taking time out my day to have a tea seems to be a small insignificant event for some, for me its HEAVEN lately.  Today was a new day,  I am eating clean,  I am fuelling my body from the inside out,  If I don't make a change in my life it will continue to be the same routine with no time for myself. I guess today my goal is to share my new life style adventure with you all :) 

Please lets talk,  Lets join this life long change together starting NOW ,  not next week or the week after ... we need to live in the moment and our moment to shine is NOW...  

I will be the most successful woman I can be, and I will never forget that behind every successful woman is herself. 

Tomorrow is day one for me,  I promise to blog over the next 30 days as I cleanse my body inside and out, as I gain extreme mental clarity, while I start my new health routine...  Join me along the way in whichever way you can!!!!

Until next time 
Coll xox

And the count down begins...

So many people will think I am totally Bananas however, I am so nervous for 21 days from now...

What happens when you turn 30?????   Does my hair start to fall out, do my breasts start to sag instantly???  Do wrinkles come in all shapes and sizes... Like what am I to expect....

If I had it my way I would be 29 forever, and obviously I can not control what is about to come...

I think that what makes me nervous is that it marks a big life event... half way to 60, 30 years till retirement, which I guess isn't so so bad.... however it just makes me so insanely nervous about what is to come.

So I have started to research what I need to do before I turn 30,  which seems like a lot to accomplish in 21 days...

The 21 day count down list is to come, just compiling the collection!


Until next time
Coll xox

My new nephew!!!

                                                                   Baby Blake :)

I am a proud Auntie once again,  however this time I was granted the privilege of being in the labouring room with my sister,  I was able to witness the miracle of birth in a totally different way.  

Thanks Stephanie and Bjorn for allowing me the opportunity to be with you both!  

I love this little Man so so much!!!!  I just can't wait to see him running around with his two brothers :) 

Until next time

Auntie Coll xox ;)

A spot light for a very special man....

I find motivation in everything around me and I always have, since a young girl I have found comfort residing by the lake, its always been a comfort for me and tends to send me to a relaxing place.  I find that no matter what goes on around me sitting on the beach and having a tea is the most tranquil place for me.

My first cup of tea was with a man I have loved all my life, and a man that has always and will always stand by my side.  I have always wished I would find someone to love me as fully as he loves.  My granddad is a gentle and kind soul.  I will never forget the days sitting with my grandfather listening to stories of when he grew up and moments in his life that were uplifting and astonishing.  He still to this day is the greatest story teller of all time.  He even can carry a tune or too, he used to sit us on his lap and sing the oooolllie goolie song, about a bird and it would make us cry as it was so funny, and maybe its his brit accent but nobody can sing a song as well as Granddad can.  I am lucky that I was able to spend many years living with my grandparents and I learned so much from them,  They have strong religious beliefs and although they are not my beliefs they have taught me that passion and compassion are two very important things to have in life.  I have always admired the love that my granddad has for my grandma,  he has a love that will never ever fade,  he admires her more than anyone knew could be possible.  Even if she fell in the mud he would still call her beautiful, of course he would probably try to take a photo or too and perhaps forget to buy or add the film... not saying this has ever happened to him before, the love he has is strong and never changing.  My granddad worked at Maple Hurst prison in Milton Ontario for many years and he would share his experiences with us, and always had a way of relating everything back to a wise old tale, and I would just love sitting with him for hours listening to him talk.  My granddad is someone who no matter what I could and can go to, I can tell him about the amazing things in my life and I can also share the heartache that also does come with life.  He would always start our conversations in this way,  Well Coll lets see how we can work through this.... and usually I had to set aside a few hours to have our chat but he always has had the way to make me smile at the end.  The funniest times with my Granddad were always watching him watch Football (Soccer to us Canadian's) he would and still does scream at the TV when the wrong plays were executed. I just loved watching Ronaldo take off his shirt to claim his victory goal... such a wonderful Grandfather granddaughter moment. The love and the admiration you have taught me over the years has resulted in me being able to love fully, to trust fully and to be the best I can be every single day of my life.  I know so many people have been touched by being in your life.

This man has always remained #1 in my heart and in my life, and Grandad you always will be my #1 man.

I love you xox

Until next time
Coll xox

Love is you...

                

I am certainly not an expert on the subject of LOVE, but really who is... 

I was browsing the web the other day and came across this amazing quote and I giggled to myself for a few moments because Bob Marley wrote it,  I was taken by the pure innocence it reveals... Most people try to find the "perfect person"  what does that even mean???  

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.”        Bob Marley

How can this make such sense,  the truth of the matter is that sometimes we make life so complicated and truthfully if we don't take time to admire and love someone for who they are, we will lose out in life,  we will spend our life chasing a dream instead of living in the moment...  Life was not intended to be so complicated, so commercial, so virtual, life was not meant to be a family sitting around a table texting their friends or updating their facebook status, life was meant to spend time with people, to take in the small moments, to enjoy one another in the best of times and to be there for one another in the worst.

Life is simple, it tends to be over complicated and I know even myself I make life complex at times,  take time to appreciate the small things,this makes life alot more precious.  Meaningful relationships need to be charished and worked on daily, we can not take people in our lives for granted.

You can not give yourself to anyone fully until you take time to get to know yourself, take time to breathe, take time to be alone and be okay with being totally alone and feel comfortable being alone, and continue to breathe... At the end of the day if you look in the mirror are you okay with who you are, Then once you are smile and know that you have finally found true love deep within your own heart. 
This love will never be forgotten or mistreated, this love will be strong and true.  

The moral to this post is...Take time for you, 

Until next time, 
Coll xo

Coming soon...

                                  Good Afternoon fellow Bloggers :)

A new post is coming soon!!!!  I have been super busy with kids and life and work so I promise tonight something new will be up :)

                                                 Until next time, 
                                                        Coll xo